Janice "Blu" aka "H.L.Buderickx
Writings from Journals and Sketchbooks
(9/97-12/3/97)

"Genesis of Opinion"
Validity and worthiness comes from the interpreter based on mere fact of Judgment regardless of intent or purpose of Creation."

10/2/97
"As a seafarer, who has escaped from the storm to the shore, turns with wearied breath to the turbulent waters and gazes; So I, still fleeing in my mind, turned back to look at the past which no one before me had ever left alive."

10/15/97
"Reassurance"
Remembering certain events and places but most of all the clear and solid idea of how all the roads had construction of some sort. All of this symbolic of some life journey that was reconstructing itself.

10/24/97
Reflection of the deliverance onto others,
And the last effect of.What was normal in one's life.Created what was not.And the realization of.By the receivers."

Excerpts from Blu's Journal as she traveled cross country three times in the last three months before and up to the day her life was altered by a motor vehicle accident on 12/4/97 :

10/24/97
"I continue to chip at an elderly pace. Dancing in an environment where most just basically dwindle.
Objectives: Discipline, Self control, must be implemented in order to keep to the routine to prepare me for what's next."

11/27/97
"Getting a little of my brain back day by day and getting my way, the way I'm used to living. Had I known the certain poisons one could take as simple pleasure and how we allow to be robbed, to the point that you are left with nothing but similarly common traits and habits as the typical "norm".

I wish I could get back at least a mile back, but instead it's an inch.

Walking backwards on a path to the point I feel is the original 'fork' in the road. It's kind of sad and funny at the same time.

I remember back when, at a time when nothing could or would phase my numbness and now I can feel the jackals all around waiting. The good thing is their just waiting for me to trip and fall instead of dying. But with this in mind, my tendency to be defensive and bitter is simpler than a trivial observation at someone or something, like it used to be.

Hopefully, it is at that 'Fork'. Realized how quickly some people seem to clasp on and become one with what was not made for them. "Consumption of the Inconsumable".

12/2/97 TUESDAY
"All objectives have been met.

While my work is left behind, a small reward for every goal or set guideline achieved.

Achieved is the PLAN.

My PLAN is the Contrary for the mere fact of the genius idea of CONTRADICTION."

12/3/97 WEDNESDAY
"Fueled by positive, when a goal/a chip falls. Realized that (previous) phases are now complete. The urge or any hint of that scene is gone. I must embed that boundary that symbol that represents completion of a phase. That destructive phase. Still face the elements that are trying to break me. That old trick or treat scene. 'Damned if don't, damned if I did', type of statement lingers."

THE INCH EVERY DAY IS THE ONLY WAY I KEEP AHEAD NOW.

12/4/97 THURSDAY 7:00PM JANICE BLU suffered Traumatic Brain Injury by Motor Vehicle Accident as a backseat passenger without a seatbelt.

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